since i last wrote…
my ex-husband died. nobody should die so young. he was diagnosed with cancer about 15 months ago, and he died a little over a month ago. he got really sick about 2 months before he died, and there are no words to describe the pain. it was horrible to see him cry, and i couldn’t help him. he wasn’t ready to die.
you enter a different world when you help someone pass away. i was consumed with a peaceful passage for him. i had to medicate myself for a couple of weeks. he and i decided to include lani and sierra in all decisions, and to be part of the whole process of dying.
when he passed away – lani and sierra had no more tears.